I started this blog 2 years ago with the best of intentions. I wanted to use blogging as a way to share my story; as a way to heal. So why has it taken me so long to get moving? Because, for all of us, life sometimes gets truly tough. And for me, I struggle to open up when things get tough. I tend to keep a lot inside, because it seems like in the storms, I never know who I can trust to row with me instead of filling the boat with more water. Being betrayed is something we all face from time to time in life....but I seem to have this huge fear of how to deal with it when it comes. I'm so afraid of hurting the person who hurt me, that I try to avoid putting myself in any situations where it could happen.
THAT. STOPS. TODAY!
Yesterday morning when I was washing dishes I had the biggest ray of happiness sunshine hit me. Why am I so hurt and focused on the few people who don't love me, when I have a tribe of people who do? Why am I holding back my blogging, always worrying all the time if it'll hurt others? Why am I waiting for the debris to clear before I take my next leap of faith? Why am I letting fear of judgments keep me from reaching up for the stars to fulfill my dreams?
Life is messy, unpredictable, and wonderful all at the same time usually! If I'm going to truly and truthfully share my journey...shouldn't it be right NOW?! Why wait a single minute longer?!
So here we go....Onward & Upward! I got this!! I can do this!!