I've been a fashion retailer, selling LuLaRoe, for almost 2 months now. Seriously?! Me? For 2 months, I've been selling clothes to the most beautiful customers and trying to learn all things fashion for even longer. Since June I've spent endless hours watching training videos and learning from my sponsor, coaches, and mentors. And yet, I still don't feel adequately educated yet. I want to learn all that I can! From fabrics and how they're made, to color and pattern mixing, and how styles wear on different body types. It's so much fun to learn something new!! Especially when you're fashionably challenged turned LuLaRoe believer.
But what I didn't expect was that my depression battle would come full circle again on me, while living out this new adventure...an adventure that I've been so excited for. Some days it's all I can do to work my brand new business even a single minute. I wake up, knowing I need to do this and should be doing that too...but instead I'm just frozen. My brain won't engage and work alongside my heart. Other days, I'm so absorbed in my new business that I forget my responsibilities...like taking out meat for dinner so I can feed my LuLaBob. Or forgetting to start cooking in the late afternoon and bombing dinner when there's no longer anytime left to cook without eating at 10pm. I used to be a huge believer in schedules and having a plan. Now, schedules leave me stressing and feeling like a failure over and over when I don't make it. I know there's a balance there somewhere...where I can still be the wife I've always been, a business owner, and still have time for my hobbies (sewing and crochet mostly) that help me zen. Just got to find it!
So what's one to do? Advice says to just get up and fake it until I make it. Put one foot in front of the other and just do it. To focus on the positive. To be confident. To be focused. To put in effort. To encourage others. I am nearly an expert at doing this for everyone around me...just not for myself. So this will be a new experience...